I do. I really do.
Seems that I lost my voice. I didn’t write for such a long time. I am not sure myself why.
We had a baby. She is 6 months now. She is 6 months today actually. Time does fly. Feels like just yesterday we brought her from the hospital. But I digress.
6 months is a magical date. That’s when the excuse “I just had a baby” stops working. So I realized that I don’t have any legitimate reason to not write on this blog anymore.
But I am afraid.
Afraid to start and stop again. Afraid that this site is not me anymore. For some time now I thought of starting a new blog. But wasn’t sure what exactly it should be about.
Funny how it works. The thing we want to help others with is usually something we struggle with ourselves. I learned that awhile ago.
Clarity is what I need myself now.
So in order to gain it I came up with a challenge. Something that I really want to do. Something that will help me with overcoming my fears and gaining clarity myself.
What is the challenge you ask?
I will write every day for 30 days in a row. One post a day. Or more if I feel like it. About anything I am inspired to write on that particular day. Literally anything. I will not edit. I will not over-think. I will just write.
One rule though.
I am not a diarist. So anything I post should have some value to people who read it. At least I should believe that it has value. It might be practical value like “this is a great vegetarian recipe I tried today”, or value in the form of inspiration. Inspiration can be very practical too sometimes, you know.
That’s it. Everything else is up to me. And my inspiration.
What do I want to get out of this challenge?
I want to see what topics will surface. I want to know what floats my boat these days.
I want to rediscover my voice.
I want to be me.
I want to rediscover my truth. Unedited and vulnerable.
I want to let go of perfectionism.
I want to dare. Because being who you are and showing your truth is always daring. For an introvert like me anyways.
So hello world.
Check out my about page for my new picture with the new baby. We are happy around here. We have our struggles and not so pretty moments. But we also have candles that make everything better. We are happy. And I am grateful for that.
Let the challenge begin. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.
P.S. I’ll be posting pictures too. Everyday unedited pictures. I might do videos. We’ll see. Here is one for today.
My writing setup. Laptop. Candle. My babies. And my oldest baby’s bakugan. We like leaving cool stuff like this on mama’s desk.