My dream comes true
My dream is you
My love is endless
I will give you my best
Honor and worship you
Love and protect you
Make you happy and loved
Give you the love from above
Short but true
I love YOU.
This poem was written for me 7 years ago by my soon to be ex-husband. He wrote me over 100 poems since then. I’ve been rereading them all today remembering how this Love started.
These days we have hard time speaking with each other and some of the things he does make me think –where did love go?
But today he was getting our son to go to the park in the morning while I was still in bed and Nicholas ran upstairs to get something from my room. David chased after him and got him out of the room quickly, whispering – “Mommy is tired, let her sleep. ”
He thought I didn’t hear. But I heard. And that one simple act made me realize – Love is still here. It is buried under layers of hurt and resentment but it is still here. It didn’t go anywhere. It is Love after all. It can’t go away.
Sometimes Love is not enough. Not enough to stay together. Not enough to be happy.
But it is everywhere. If you are willing to see it. And no matter what – it is beautiful.
I made more mistakes in this relationship than I can count. He made lots of mistakes too that I know he regrets about now. I forgive him, have forgiven a long time ago actually.
And today I forgive myself too. For everything. For breaking my vows. I said “I am going to be with you always” when we were getting married. How silly was I assuming I knew what future holds.
I’ll never promise “forever” to anyone anymore. I will promise “Now”. I choose to live in the present moment. With less expectations. And more joy that comes as a result. That seems to be working much better so far.
There are so many things that I am grateful for. Lessons I learned, experiences we shared, our son, new life I got as a result of this marriage. I am truly grateful. And I let go. I am sorry for all the dreams that didn’t come true. But in place of those old dreams new dreams came into being. More authentic dreams.
I hope he finds what he was looking for in this marriage with a woman who’ll be able to truly appreciate him for who he is.
I know that I will always be grateful for all we had together and for the person I became because of this relationship.
I will stay happy and optimistic no matter how messy this divorce might get.
I can get through this and so can you if you are going through a difficult period in your life.
Love is everywhere. Take a deep breath. Feel it. It’s right next to you.
Where do you want to go next?
No matter how difficult things might be now, get clear on what you want next. It might look too far stretched. It might seem too unbelievable at the moment. But get clear now.
You never know what the Universe has in store for you. It really might surprise you.
I got clear on what I want my new relationship to be like before it was even time to start thinking about thinking about anything new. And I think I am really close to getting what I wanted.
Find a new dream. Write a new poem. Sing a new song.
This world is abundant. It loves you. And it wants to give you what you want. Just get clear and allow yourself to accept it.
P.S. Thank you to everyone who commented, emailed and called me after my last post. It feels really great to know I have so many supportive friends around me. I love you, my darlings!