I got involved today in a very unexpected activity for me. I was talking to God.
Why unexpected? Because I don’t talk to God often. I am not religious person, I don’t go to church, I don’t say prayers or read the Bible.
I, of course like many of us, believe in Source or Universal Consciousness or our Higher Self… whatever we call it, it represents the same thing to me. God represents that to me too, but I don’t talk specifically to God, and I never imagine the Father Almighty when I try to get some answers from within.
Anyway, today I was asked to talk to God. Specifically God, not any other names I mentioned above. It had to be God, The Father, The Almighty. I had to imagine a person not a concept.
I was reluctant in the beginning, I had resistance. I asked why do I have to give this religious connotation to it? Why can’t I just talk to my intuition or to my Highest Self or the Universe? But the person specifically asked to talk to God and imagine God.
I still wanted to resist, I wanted to argue, I wanted to prove that it doesn’t matter what we call him or what we imagine. As long as the attributes are the same, the name we give or the specific image we have in mind doesn’t matter.
I was asked to try anyway to imagine God and talk specifically to God. I surprisingly agreed to do it.
I imagined God. I haven’t done it in a long time. It felt weird.
Then I was instructed to ask questions. I asked. One of the questions I asked was –What do you think of me? Another one was – What message do you have for me?
I had to write my answers down as they came. I had about 5 minutes and I had to write down the first things that came to mind.
What came out was nothing that I didn’t expect or didn’t know but everything that I didn’t expect and didn’t know. It really felt like coming home if it makes sense.
I wanted to share with you the message that I found written down on my paper:
“I love you, my sweet and dear child, always did, always will. There is nothing you can do for that love to change. There is nothing that can separate me from you.
I love you so much that it hurts.
I want to protect you, I want to give you only the best. But you have a choice and like a loving parent I respect it.
You think that you need some of the choices you make in order for you to grow more but in my eyes you are so perfect, no further growth is needed.
I so wish you could realize it. I so wish you could understand how much I love you and could see the love that you are.
I so wish you could realize that you don’t need to work on yourself or improve yourself first before you can earn what you want.
You deserve it now.
Please allow me to give it to you.
Allow in all the abundance that is yours already.
I love you. I am proud of you. I am here for you.
You can trust me. Will you trust me? Please trust me.”
That was the message. I felt I had to share it with you. Hope you don’t think I am too pathetic for doing it:)
Here are some lessons I took from the experience:
1. I realized why I had to talk specifically to God and imagine a person in front of me. The Universe, the Source or any other concepts I originally wanted to use could not have possibly sent me the same message. Well, maybe they could but my mind wouldn’t have accepted it. It had to be a person.
2. I realized once again that there are always two ways: pushing and allowing. Both work but the last one is easier. I am still pushing a lot in my life even though I want to start allowing more.
Does allowing mean not doing anything and just sitting on the couch expecting all of my desires knock on the door?
No! It means trusting more, letting go more, loving myself more, expecting less failures while taking the same focused and consistent action.
Allowing is not as much about what you do but more about how you do it, the vibration you send out while doing it. There is no clinging, there is no fear, there is no striving.
3. I also realized that you probably can’t come to a full allowing stage before you went through a pushing stage. Some people never come to a pushing stage to begin with. Some people are so afraid of failures that they never take action on their dreams to begin with.
Pushing is good as long as you are moving and growing…but allowing is so much better and so liberating.
Allow the ease. Trust more. You are always loved. Nothing can change it. Failure is an illusion.
He is always there for you. Whatever you call him – God, Source, The Universe, Your Higher Self, Your Unconscious Mind or maybe you don’t call him anything. He is still there.
He wants to help you.
You deserve it. You are perfect already.
Accept your greatness, step into it and allow the abundance to come in.