Neutrality is not a new concept. Lost your job? Neutral. Marriage sucks? Neutral. Found the love of your life? Neutral. It’s all neutral. It’s all just an experience.
Your mind gives “good” or “bad” interpretation to it, but ultimately…neutral.
What are you resisting in your life now?
You know that what you resist persists. We all know that.
Theoretically sounds great – just stop resisting the situation. Be in it. Accept it and see it dissolve on its own.
Stop worrying about money. Stop worrying about your marriage. Stop worrying about – how much longer I am going to be here. Here… where I don’t want to be anymore.
When will Change come? Easily and effortlessly. Preferably without me doing the hard work.
My divorce has been going on forever already. I am so ready to be over with it. But it doesn’t seem to end any time soon. How do you not resist something like this?
The thing is – it won’t end until I accept Here and Now. Until I stop resisting. Hard work might not be necessary but dropping resistance is. [click to continue…]
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I hope
My dream comes true
I hope
My dream is you
I know
My love is endless
I know
I will give you my best
I will
Honor and worship you
I will
Love and protect you
I can
Make you happy and loved
I can
Give you the love from above
Short but true
I love YOU.
This poem was written for me 7 years ago by my soon to be ex-husband. He wrote me over 100 poems since then. I’ve been rereading them all today remembering how this Love started.
These days we have hard time speaking with each other and some of the things he does make me think –where did love go? [click to continue…]
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In the past few weeks I’ve been going in and out of the state of depression without realizing it. I don’t even want to use this word here – depression. Too strong for me. I never viewed myself as someone who would experience something like this.
I am an optimistic person. Sometimes to the point of where it is stupid. The sky might be falling and I will be standing there and thinking –It is for the best. And everything truly is for the best. But sometimes being always positive and optimistic is not the best thing to do.
In the last few weeks I went numb. I bet you noticed that considering there was almost no posts on this blog.
Main reason? My divorce. Divorce that I tried so hard to make not a big deal out of.
Let me tell you. It is a big deal. Freaking big and quite stressful deal. Especially when there are kids involved.
For whatever reason I was afraid to admit it. I was afraid to face it.
I painted a nice picture in my mind of us peacefully getting divorced but staying best friends who share a child and spend time together often. Didn’t quite work out that way. We are to the point of hardly speaking with each other.
And our son is in the middle of it all. I so wanted to prevent him from seeing us like this. He sees it all now.
So there I was. In the middle of a quite stressful divorce trying to convince myself that it was not a big deal. I would repeat over and over again to myself and everyone else around that it was just an experience. I am moving to a better place. Everything is good. I would also throw a joke there when someone asked.
Complete denial. [click to continue…]
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When I got married 5 years ago I told to my husband at the time that I wanted to be a stay at home mom. I was so burned out at the job I had that I sincerely believed I didn’t want to ever work anymore and would be satisfied raising kids and taking care of the house.
The husband was thrilled with the idea, that was what he wanted his wife to be. The idea was nice theoretically, but didn’t last too long. I got bored and got a job 3 months after we got married.
When my son Nicholas was born I realized that I can’t take him to daycare and I don’t trust babysitters, at least while he was little. That’s where the dilemma started. How can I be someone who is not just a stay at home mom and at the same time stay at home with my baby? Home-based business was the only logical answer. So my business started not as a result of me wanting to follow my passion. Passion came later. It started as a desire to do something meaningful in the world and stay at home with my son at the same time.
Fast forward couple years.
I tried many business models online. Made money. Lost money. Scratched everything and started over. Rediscovered my passions. Decided to get divorced. [click to continue…]
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Do you remember a time in your life when you just wanted to take a break from everything you were doing? Work, business, blog whatever it is… Just take a break and not think about any of those things (even if you do love doing them) anymore?
After releasing Clarity Manifesto last week, I realized I needed a break. Well, the break from blogging started even earlier, but last week I decided to take a full blown break.
A complete turn off from everything I was doing – blogging, marketing my coaching, Twitter, Facebook, Linkedin, reading and commenting on other blogs (I love you, my dear fellow bloggers and learn so much from you, but I still felt like I needed a break from your genius), creating content, submitting articles, newsletters, answering emails,etc… – if you do any business online, you know what I am talking about.
I love what I do. It almost never feels like a job. I love writing. I love helping people. I love my coaching sessions and “a-ha” moments my clients and I myself experience.
But I realized that I do need a break from that too. And I decided to not resist it this time. I gave in. Yes, there is always a fear that people will unsubscribe from your list and stop reading your blog and everyone will forget you on Twitter and no one will ever sign up for your coaching anymore.
But I refuse to live this way. It feels like another box, another rat race to me. I choose to believe in abundance of this wonderful Universe that always provides. I choose to believe in ease. I choose to believe that I am my only judge and if I consciously decide to not judge myself, no one else will.
I don’t believe in balance. I believe in rollercoaster. Work hard, rest hard. It works for me.
So what did I do on my little break?
I spent lots of time with my baby, my son Nicholas. I also spent lots of time with an amazing person who I met few months ago but only recently realized his amazingness fully. That was probably the main reason the break started, but more updates on that later. I took lots of walks in the park. Heck, I even got back to going to the gym. In short, it was a good break.
Now I am back. And will be updating the blog regularly again. This blog is something I’ll never leave. I might be taking breaks (not often) but I don’t see myself quitting blogging anytime soon. I love writing. I love the creation process.
I just signed up for Leo Babauta’s A-List Blogging bootcamp, so not only am I nowhere close to quitting, but I am taking it to the next level.
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Clarity works in amazing ways. I am still surprised sometimes how fast and easy it often is.
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Anyway, that was my little update. I am glad to be back.
Hope all is great in your world!
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This is a totally inappropriate post for the week of prelaunching my product. Don’t I need to do some convincing of why you need clarity and why you need to buy my stuff to help you with that? Oh, screw it, I go with the inspiration as always. You do need clarity though, so check out the preorder page.
On December 22 of 2006 my life turned around. My baby was born.
I don’t write on this blog about my son often. This is something I decided to keep private, and I never could really relate motherhood to clarity.
But today is different. Today I can relate it. Plus my soul wants to write about my baby, so I will. I know a lot of you will resonate. Those who won’t (if you don’t have kids), it will give you a glimpse of what you are getting into if you ever decide to have one…or two…or more. [click to continue…]
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